Greetings People of 2011!
For the technical-minded among us (my husband tells me) this number marks the true beginning of the new decade. For me, I am completely jazzed and excited as this week heralds the beginning of San Mateo County's new composting and recycling program. Yay!!!! Our bins have been ready for weeks and finally it is time for the real separation to begin. And not a moment too soon. We just spent a week at a Club Med where there were unbelievable buffets for every meal...and so much food waste. I am planning to be the cheerful garbage police and pail organizer in my own home--though if the kids want to take it on as part of their allowance chores (those things they are supposed to do every week to earn an allowance that hasn't completely caught on yet) we can share the duty.
As I'm still on Domincan Republic time, 4 hours earlier than here, I keep waking up at 4 or 5 a.m. and being ready for bed at 8 or 9 at night. It feels great to be so awake in the morning (how long will this feeling last?) though I don't really go to bed at 8 or 9....I find it hard to get up in the dark though, so I lie there for a while first. People seem to love early mornings to get their favorite things done -- exercise, or writing time, or getting things organized for the day. My New Year's resolution is to make quick, good decisions. Here I come, New Year.
Monday, January 3, 2011
Friday, September 24, 2010
Room
The moment I read the first NY Times review of the new novel Room by Emma Donaghue, I hopped on my bike and rode off to the library. It was so new it wasn't even there yet but two days later I had it in hand. I'm not usually much of a new book reader, but this one sounded...different.
And it was. It is narrated entirely through the POV of a five-year-old boy, in first person present tense. I felt I thoroughly knew this boy, and I vividly understood his mother and his environment through him.It was quite amazing and had the mark of a truly fine book -- I've been thinking about it ever since. The characters and places have stayed with me. So many books and movies disappoint in this -- they might be great as page-turners or exciting in their use of cliff-hangers and drama -- and don't get me wrong, I admire and envy them for that--but they're gone the moment you close the book or leave the theater or turn off the TV.
Here's what was most compelling about Room's story for me: in spite of being told by a small child, it was never once darling or precious in its telling. It would have been so easy to go there. And believe me, my radar was up. I keep looking back at it (even though I should really get it back to the library asap for the next person) to try to figure out how this was accomplished. The boy's speech patterns are childlike, and he is darling, but that's besides the point. He is doing his best to interpret his world. We see him turn five and start to ask questions. He is held captive with his mother in an 11x11 room with no way out, and not even a window. He has never been outside or seen another person. From his perspective this isn't a problem--it's all he knows--but he has new questions about things now. Questions that lead his mother to start planning a "Great Escape." There's a lot of dialogue, and thoughts morphing into dialogue, and Donaghue never loses that train of thought. It is completely logical given the context.
There are some beautiful moments:
When they finally get "Outside," and the doctors are evaluating all the interventions and therapies this bright, precocious but sheltered (in the strangest sense of the word) boy will need, his mother says, "I thought he was okay...."
When the mother finally consents to an TV interview, and the interviewer callously asks her one sensational question after another (including asking if she sometimes misses the simplicity of her old life being locked in a shed), she turns to her lawyer and says, "Is she allowed to ask me such stupid questions?"
It's amazing how the world they escape to is so flawed. It's a world we recognize. Everyone's there, but distracted by their own lives. Sure, they are happy to see Ma and Jack, but they still have to stop at the mall for party gifts, book club members still show up at the door, parents still have their own biases and there are a lot of stupid assumptions. There's also a lot of effort and love. It's a familiar place to us -- full of imperfect beauty, good intentions and best efforts, all kinds of people, cracks, flaws and hope. Jack notes there are a lot of amazing things in the world, but coming from a tiny world where there is only one of every necessity, there's also a lot of "repeats." He forgets that if something is in a new place it won't be in the old place anymore. He doesn't understand how a book he had back in Room could have gotten somewhere into a store and assumes it is his. There's a lot to get used to. There's a lot for us to recognize -- of how much we have, how much we take for granted, how much we don't see or recognize.
Anyway, enough spoilers.
Many books when you get toward the end, you can feel yourself being eased out of the story -- airlifted, or pushed toward the door, or a tiny voice saying, okay now we're going to tie things up! Sometimes endings are abrupt and unsatisfying. Sometimes they are beautiful but not fully earned. Sometimes you realize the author has nothing important to say at the end but has to stumble towards one anyway. Room ends in the most perfect, fully earned, and resonant way. A way that balances the arc of the book, is utterly faithful to its characters, and best of all, exhibits their growth right up to the very last moment. This is a complete rarity and wonderful gift.
Well done, Emma Donaghue. My sincerest thanks and appreciation. Everyone else, read this book!
And it was. It is narrated entirely through the POV of a five-year-old boy, in first person present tense. I felt I thoroughly knew this boy, and I vividly understood his mother and his environment through him.It was quite amazing and had the mark of a truly fine book -- I've been thinking about it ever since. The characters and places have stayed with me. So many books and movies disappoint in this -- they might be great as page-turners or exciting in their use of cliff-hangers and drama -- and don't get me wrong, I admire and envy them for that--but they're gone the moment you close the book or leave the theater or turn off the TV.
Here's what was most compelling about Room's story for me: in spite of being told by a small child, it was never once darling or precious in its telling. It would have been so easy to go there. And believe me, my radar was up. I keep looking back at it (even though I should really get it back to the library asap for the next person) to try to figure out how this was accomplished. The boy's speech patterns are childlike, and he is darling, but that's besides the point. He is doing his best to interpret his world. We see him turn five and start to ask questions. He is held captive with his mother in an 11x11 room with no way out, and not even a window. He has never been outside or seen another person. From his perspective this isn't a problem--it's all he knows--but he has new questions about things now. Questions that lead his mother to start planning a "Great Escape." There's a lot of dialogue, and thoughts morphing into dialogue, and Donaghue never loses that train of thought. It is completely logical given the context.
There are some beautiful moments:
When they finally get "Outside," and the doctors are evaluating all the interventions and therapies this bright, precocious but sheltered (in the strangest sense of the word) boy will need, his mother says, "I thought he was okay...."
When the mother finally consents to an TV interview, and the interviewer callously asks her one sensational question after another (including asking if she sometimes misses the simplicity of her old life being locked in a shed), she turns to her lawyer and says, "Is she allowed to ask me such stupid questions?"
It's amazing how the world they escape to is so flawed. It's a world we recognize. Everyone's there, but distracted by their own lives. Sure, they are happy to see Ma and Jack, but they still have to stop at the mall for party gifts, book club members still show up at the door, parents still have their own biases and there are a lot of stupid assumptions. There's also a lot of effort and love. It's a familiar place to us -- full of imperfect beauty, good intentions and best efforts, all kinds of people, cracks, flaws and hope. Jack notes there are a lot of amazing things in the world, but coming from a tiny world where there is only one of every necessity, there's also a lot of "repeats." He forgets that if something is in a new place it won't be in the old place anymore. He doesn't understand how a book he had back in Room could have gotten somewhere into a store and assumes it is his. There's a lot to get used to. There's a lot for us to recognize -- of how much we have, how much we take for granted, how much we don't see or recognize.
Anyway, enough spoilers.
Many books when you get toward the end, you can feel yourself being eased out of the story -- airlifted, or pushed toward the door, or a tiny voice saying, okay now we're going to tie things up! Sometimes endings are abrupt and unsatisfying. Sometimes they are beautiful but not fully earned. Sometimes you realize the author has nothing important to say at the end but has to stumble towards one anyway. Room ends in the most perfect, fully earned, and resonant way. A way that balances the arc of the book, is utterly faithful to its characters, and best of all, exhibits their growth right up to the very last moment. This is a complete rarity and wonderful gift.
Well done, Emma Donaghue. My sincerest thanks and appreciation. Everyone else, read this book!
Thursday, July 1, 2010
Molting
I've always held a fascination for molting. Squirming out of your skin and leaving it behind. Maybe because I've had psoriasis since I was 18 this seemed very appealing if I could figure out how to do it. This week one of our hermit crabs molted, leaving behind its entire skin intact. It looked exactly like a crab and barely weighed less. I couldn't figure out how another crab got in the tank! But then Aaron figured it out.
The same week, after doing my proper bending and glide-walking and building up my gluts in the Esther Gokhale 8 Steps to a Pain Free Back process (which, let me tell you, is worth the whole thing even without the posture and other health benefits - you get a great butt!), I actually split my pants.
Okay, stop laughing. It might have had just the tiniest, tiniest bit to do with gaining a few extra pounds over the winter or the jeans getting worn and old, but for me, I prefer the molting scenario. There was not, alas, a new pair of jeans underneath, or even a new skin, just shell-colored underwear. And my husband and kids each took turns poking me through the hole in my pants on the way out of the Chinese restaurant.
But still, I was pleased in an odd way. And I fared better than Spikey the hermit crab, who sadly didn't survive long after molting. (R.I.P. Spikes). Except now I have to go shopping.
The same week, after doing my proper bending and glide-walking and building up my gluts in the Esther Gokhale 8 Steps to a Pain Free Back process (which, let me tell you, is worth the whole thing even without the posture and other health benefits - you get a great butt!), I actually split my pants.
Okay, stop laughing. It might have had just the tiniest, tiniest bit to do with gaining a few extra pounds over the winter or the jeans getting worn and old, but for me, I prefer the molting scenario. There was not, alas, a new pair of jeans underneath, or even a new skin, just shell-colored underwear. And my husband and kids each took turns poking me through the hole in my pants on the way out of the Chinese restaurant.
But still, I was pleased in an odd way. And I fared better than Spikey the hermit crab, who sadly didn't survive long after molting. (R.I.P. Spikes). Except now I have to go shopping.
Sunday, June 13, 2010
In memorium of Effie Lee Morris
In honor of my old friend Effie Lee Morris, children's librarian and tireless advocate for children and literature who died this winter and whose memorial service is being held Monday at the San Francisco Main Library, I am re-posting my June 9, 2008 blog post:
Two Old Ladies
I was exhausted--Jon had been traveling and I'd been single-parenting all week-- but Saturday night found me at the historic Sir Francis Drake Hotel in San Francisco sitting around a table with women from all over the country. We were moms, grandmas, writers, agents, publishers, book lovers, and chapter presidents. With, of course, lots of combinations of the above.
This was an historic event. I don't know what it is about 40th's. They somehow seem like a bigger deal than 50th's, more of a magical number. Like 40 years wandering in the desert.
Anyway, we hard a great speaker -- humor writer Beth Lisick. She was very funny and genuine and started off with, "I feel like I'm with my people." There were speeches, food, books. At the end, almost delerious to get to my car and get home and fall into my bed, I got on my jacket to walk the couple of blocks to the parking garage. Effie Lee Morris, our founding member and president of 40 years ago, and Adele Horwitz, a member and former president for about as long, were heading to the garage, too, so we walked together.
Adele walks with a cane now, and both of them are slower than they used to be. I thought of myself as their escort, but they didn't need me, not even to lean on an arm. I refrained from offering my arm, even though I felt like I should. After all, they were old ladies. But some old ladies! Effie Lee still serves on several boards, has a special collection named for her in the San Francisco Public Library as well as an annual children's book lecture there. She held forth on the podium that night on the history of the WNBA SF chapter and its many members and glories. She would have talked all night if we'd asked. Adele was driving an hour home and does it all the time. She has raised her children, her grandchildren, and now in her retirement, her great-grandchildren as well.
These two old ladies ARE supports in their homes and communities, with experience far beyond mine, and I knew I could lean on them if needed and they wouldn't bat an eye.
Monday, March 1, 2010
Fire!
Of the 3,000 blog topics that are swirling around in my brain...I will select: Fire.
Specifically, toaster oven fires, of which I now have direct experience. Friday I had a school Read-A-Thon meeting scheduled at my house right after the kids left for school. For breakfast, I popped some Trader Joe's mini morning buns into the toaster oven and went to get dressed while they baked and the kids got ready. Less than 10 minutes later (the buns were scheduled for a 15-20 minute snooze in the toaster oven), smoke was pouring out and flames leaping up inside as the black plastic tray designed to go into the oven melted to pieces. Then those pieces flew all over the kitchen, settling everywhere.
The funny thing was (the only funny thing) the theme of this year's Read-A-Thon is "Fire Up With Reading." I really didn't mean to take it so literally.
The best part: some really nice firefighters came by a little later to make sure the kitchen wasn't toxic. By then, three other women were here for our meeting. I wondered later if the firemen thought I had called all my friends from the neighborhood for their visit.
The worst part: the fire made a big mess, but did not ruin our kitchen cabinets which need replacing anyway.
The really best part: no one was injured and our house didn't burn down.
The disturbing part: smoke alarms didn't go off and my 7-year old was so intent on studying the boxes of cereal in the cabinet across the room that he never noticed the smoke and flames.
The second best part: a professional cleaning crew has been cleaning up the last 3 days.
The second worst part: it comes out of our insurance deductible.
It's a little scary to think about. Fire, I mean. How fast things can happen and go wrong. I always think of it as such an unlikely thing, but it turns out it isn't.
Specifically, toaster oven fires, of which I now have direct experience. Friday I had a school Read-A-Thon meeting scheduled at my house right after the kids left for school. For breakfast, I popped some Trader Joe's mini morning buns into the toaster oven and went to get dressed while they baked and the kids got ready. Less than 10 minutes later (the buns were scheduled for a 15-20 minute snooze in the toaster oven), smoke was pouring out and flames leaping up inside as the black plastic tray designed to go into the oven melted to pieces. Then those pieces flew all over the kitchen, settling everywhere.
The funny thing was (the only funny thing) the theme of this year's Read-A-Thon is "Fire Up With Reading." I really didn't mean to take it so literally.
The best part: some really nice firefighters came by a little later to make sure the kitchen wasn't toxic. By then, three other women were here for our meeting. I wondered later if the firemen thought I had called all my friends from the neighborhood for their visit.
The worst part: the fire made a big mess, but did not ruin our kitchen cabinets which need replacing anyway.
The really best part: no one was injured and our house didn't burn down.
The disturbing part: smoke alarms didn't go off and my 7-year old was so intent on studying the boxes of cereal in the cabinet across the room that he never noticed the smoke and flames.
The second best part: a professional cleaning crew has been cleaning up the last 3 days.
The second worst part: it comes out of our insurance deductible.
It's a little scary to think about. Fire, I mean. How fast things can happen and go wrong. I always think of it as such an unlikely thing, but it turns out it isn't.
Thursday, January 7, 2010
Happy New Decade
Happy New Year to everybody - slightly belated. My computer is not going to make it very far in this decade, I'm afraid. But I'm on-line for now.
Stay tuned for:
My Most Romantic Moment of the Year so far...
Updates on Lisa's Bookstack (lots of YA and more evolution!)
Thoughts on the Blackberry and other screens
Embarrassing truths revealed...
And More, coming your way soon!
What was the first thing YOU did in the new year/decade? I always think of the story of the baker who was all out of flour, sugar and all his other ingredients. He shared his dinner with a weary traveler, and the traveler told him whatever he did first the next morning he would do all day long. Well, the first thing he did was open his flour and sugar and ingredient bins to see what he could scrape together, and they magically refilled themselves and he baked all day and sold everything and bought more ingredients and had a fine year!
My first action? I'd forgotten to turn off the heat before going to bed. Our furnace is in a hall closet and is old and loud. Think vacuum cleaner noise rushing through the house. It came on at 6:45, which is fine during a week when we have to get up at that time. But of course, New Year's Day we didn't. So my first moment of the year was waking with a start and shouting, "I hate the heat!"
A couple of hours later, I tried to counteract that "false start" by going for a nice walk in the new day, the new year, the new decade, the neighborhood. It was quiet. The air was fresh and a little misty. Only a few others were out, on bikes, walking dogs. We greeted each other peacefully. I walked over hill and dale, and back through the shopping center to pick up eggs and a Starbucks nonfat double capp for Jon on my way home again.
Stay tuned for:
My Most Romantic Moment of the Year so far...
Updates on Lisa's Bookstack (lots of YA and more evolution!)
Thoughts on the Blackberry and other screens
Embarrassing truths revealed...
And More, coming your way soon!
What was the first thing YOU did in the new year/decade? I always think of the story of the baker who was all out of flour, sugar and all his other ingredients. He shared his dinner with a weary traveler, and the traveler told him whatever he did first the next morning he would do all day long. Well, the first thing he did was open his flour and sugar and ingredient bins to see what he could scrape together, and they magically refilled themselves and he baked all day and sold everything and bought more ingredients and had a fine year!
My first action? I'd forgotten to turn off the heat before going to bed. Our furnace is in a hall closet and is old and loud. Think vacuum cleaner noise rushing through the house. It came on at 6:45, which is fine during a week when we have to get up at that time. But of course, New Year's Day we didn't. So my first moment of the year was waking with a start and shouting, "I hate the heat!"
A couple of hours later, I tried to counteract that "false start" by going for a nice walk in the new day, the new year, the new decade, the neighborhood. It was quiet. The air was fresh and a little misty. Only a few others were out, on bikes, walking dogs. We greeted each other peacefully. I walked over hill and dale, and back through the shopping center to pick up eggs and a Starbucks nonfat double capp for Jon on my way home again.
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Lisa's Bookstack
After 3 years and as many attempts to read it, I finally plowed through the first 100 pages of Salman Rushdie's Midnight's Children and on to the end. Those beginning pages kept stumping me for years -- telling the story of the story before the story. I get impatient. But I was told it would be more than worth it, and it was. Reading it almost 30 years after its publication, I was struck by how much history on which I have only a tenuous grasp. The heart of the story is that one man, since his birth, and all the events for two generations preceding his birth, is the personal mirror of all the events of modern India, and all the events and details of those whose lives have touched his, have conspired to shape his own. They are in the story insofar as they are needed to reach whatever events and circumstances that meet that need, and then they are discarded.
It's a great book. A gleeful and deadly serious romp through history by a narrator who redefines "unreliable narrator." The storyteller, Saleem Sinai, is constantly pointing out the inaccuracies of his tale, and how his mind is rearranging things, or at least fine-tuning them to suit his needs, but as a way to make a greater sense of them. As the tale goes on, there is an ever-more-desperate and ever more transparent need to swirl the events of history around him, until, finally, he reaches a scene where he's too tired or too far in his tale to fold one more "event" into his own.
Next book: evolutionary biologist Richard Dawkins' The Ancestor's Tale: A Pilgrimage to the Dawn of Evolution. He begins with a short romp through other evolutionists' human-centric "conceit of hindsight" view that all evolution has been leading to its final, finished product: us, and how we tend to assign value to all events and species and ancestors that lived for this purpose - to be a signpost to modern humans. Dawkins begins with us humans as a "starting point" for his journey backwards in time, but points out he could just as easily begin with elephants or bumblebees. We're all going to converge in a short time anyway on our trip backward through time.
The book before these was Marilynne Robinson's Home, which was a microcosm of one family, with special emphasis on the wayward black sheep of the family, Jack Boughton, with his story not so much told, as divined from around the edges of the family history, which itself is told only around the edges of heartache, regret and love, wrapped in a blanket of religion and an almost desperate search for God and meaning.
Different lenses, same need for meaning, misguided or not. Meaning is the construct we humans search for endlessly. Living in the moment is another construct we seek, but separated from meaning, I don't know what that would look like. We wouldn't have a concept of living in the moment without meaning. It's certainly what most animals do - live in the moment - because they have no other choice.
To "wrap in" one more piece, last night Jon and I watched the movie Groundhog Day with the kids. We hadn't seen it in years and though it would be fun to share with them. The ultimate movie about living in the moment AND doing it with meaning. Bill Murray is consigned to living the same day over and over until he gets it right. Letting go of everything and embracing everything is his task. After thousands of attempts, he finally nails it, not because of the details but because he finally really cares. It's when he resigns himself not to trying to get out of the endlessly repeating day but to really living in the day that something changes.
It does make me think of the endless cycle of history, how things repeat, how a million years is just a day in the larger timescale of the universe. It's a little TOO big for me to ponder further right now, so I'll leave that for Saleem, Jack, Richard and Bill Murray. I have to eat breakfast and get to a dentist appointment and pack for Thanksgiving weekend in L.A.
But it's been fun visiting. Nice to see you again, and Happy Thanksgiving!
It's a great book. A gleeful and deadly serious romp through history by a narrator who redefines "unreliable narrator." The storyteller, Saleem Sinai, is constantly pointing out the inaccuracies of his tale, and how his mind is rearranging things, or at least fine-tuning them to suit his needs, but as a way to make a greater sense of them. As the tale goes on, there is an ever-more-desperate and ever more transparent need to swirl the events of history around him, until, finally, he reaches a scene where he's too tired or too far in his tale to fold one more "event" into his own.
Next book: evolutionary biologist Richard Dawkins' The Ancestor's Tale: A Pilgrimage to the Dawn of Evolution. He begins with a short romp through other evolutionists' human-centric "conceit of hindsight" view that all evolution has been leading to its final, finished product: us, and how we tend to assign value to all events and species and ancestors that lived for this purpose - to be a signpost to modern humans. Dawkins begins with us humans as a "starting point" for his journey backwards in time, but points out he could just as easily begin with elephants or bumblebees. We're all going to converge in a short time anyway on our trip backward through time.
The book before these was Marilynne Robinson's Home, which was a microcosm of one family, with special emphasis on the wayward black sheep of the family, Jack Boughton, with his story not so much told, as divined from around the edges of the family history, which itself is told only around the edges of heartache, regret and love, wrapped in a blanket of religion and an almost desperate search for God and meaning.
Different lenses, same need for meaning, misguided or not. Meaning is the construct we humans search for endlessly. Living in the moment is another construct we seek, but separated from meaning, I don't know what that would look like. We wouldn't have a concept of living in the moment without meaning. It's certainly what most animals do - live in the moment - because they have no other choice.
To "wrap in" one more piece, last night Jon and I watched the movie Groundhog Day with the kids. We hadn't seen it in years and though it would be fun to share with them. The ultimate movie about living in the moment AND doing it with meaning. Bill Murray is consigned to living the same day over and over until he gets it right. Letting go of everything and embracing everything is his task. After thousands of attempts, he finally nails it, not because of the details but because he finally really cares. It's when he resigns himself not to trying to get out of the endlessly repeating day but to really living in the day that something changes.
It does make me think of the endless cycle of history, how things repeat, how a million years is just a day in the larger timescale of the universe. It's a little TOO big for me to ponder further right now, so I'll leave that for Saleem, Jack, Richard and Bill Murray. I have to eat breakfast and get to a dentist appointment and pack for Thanksgiving weekend in L.A.
But it's been fun visiting. Nice to see you again, and Happy Thanksgiving!
Monday, October 26, 2009
Leaves, Rain, Curtains and Prayers
We just got back from Syracuse yesterday -- on a pre-dawn flight. The kids and I went to bed at 1am and got up again at 4:30am -- or 1:30 am west coast time -- though Jon doesn't agree with me that that means we only had a half hour of sleep.
It rained much of the few days we were there for my nephew David's Bar Mitzvah, but I got to see the leaves changing! No jumping in them or raking up big crunchy piles, but lots of beautiful color. Beautiful gold, some orange, a little red creeping out. The reds weren't in full force yet -- we managed to arrive before the peak, which was fine. I was happy. I didn't even mind the rain and clouds. It's the feel of home. It wasn't sunny all the time when I lived there, after all. And I saw the trees changing their colors from the car window as we went back and forth to the temple.
I also appreciated our temple, Temple Concord, which is one of the oldest congregations in America, founded in 1839 and in this location for almost 100 years. Most other temples I've been in are new and modern, and never feel quite the same to me. Temple Concord is old and stately, with cream-colored pillars against light blue walls, and super high adorned ceilings. It also has, I remembered, many nooks and crannies, and rooms down all kinds of hallways, and layers of heavy curtains on the stage in the social hall, where I remembered hanging out in its dark folds with other teenagers during youth group meeting breaks.
The women's room off the big social hall I remembered was another favorite, with a lounge area and couch, and about 20 degrees hotter than the larger room. It was still a sauna. Toward the end of the party I went in there and found two 14-year-olds stretched out on the floor like they really were taking a sauna.
David did a great job at his Bar Mitzvah, and I felt the deep emotion of a centuries-old tradition. There is something about those traditions that is so deep and sometimes so unexpected for one who doesn't even belong to temple these days. When Aaron was 8 days old we held a bris, the Jewish circumcision ceremony, for him. It hit me way more powerfully than I'd expected. I felt in that quick, practiced moment of cutting, and the rabbi's prayers, and the friends and family gathered, the generations that had preceded us, the great history and belief that had guided us to that moment. It was visceral. My very body responded with blood and milk.
Every thing and its seasons.
It rained much of the few days we were there for my nephew David's Bar Mitzvah, but I got to see the leaves changing! No jumping in them or raking up big crunchy piles, but lots of beautiful color. Beautiful gold, some orange, a little red creeping out. The reds weren't in full force yet -- we managed to arrive before the peak, which was fine. I was happy. I didn't even mind the rain and clouds. It's the feel of home. It wasn't sunny all the time when I lived there, after all. And I saw the trees changing their colors from the car window as we went back and forth to the temple.
I also appreciated our temple, Temple Concord, which is one of the oldest congregations in America, founded in 1839 and in this location for almost 100 years. Most other temples I've been in are new and modern, and never feel quite the same to me. Temple Concord is old and stately, with cream-colored pillars against light blue walls, and super high adorned ceilings. It also has, I remembered, many nooks and crannies, and rooms down all kinds of hallways, and layers of heavy curtains on the stage in the social hall, where I remembered hanging out in its dark folds with other teenagers during youth group meeting breaks.
The women's room off the big social hall I remembered was another favorite, with a lounge area and couch, and about 20 degrees hotter than the larger room. It was still a sauna. Toward the end of the party I went in there and found two 14-year-olds stretched out on the floor like they really were taking a sauna.
David did a great job at his Bar Mitzvah, and I felt the deep emotion of a centuries-old tradition. There is something about those traditions that is so deep and sometimes so unexpected for one who doesn't even belong to temple these days. When Aaron was 8 days old we held a bris, the Jewish circumcision ceremony, for him. It hit me way more powerfully than I'd expected. I felt in that quick, practiced moment of cutting, and the rabbi's prayers, and the friends and family gathered, the generations that had preceded us, the great history and belief that had guided us to that moment. It was visceral. My very body responded with blood and milk.
Every thing and its seasons.
Monday, October 12, 2009
African Fortune Cookie
Let your love be like the misty rain, coming softly, but flooding the river.The loveliest fortune I ever opened.
A gift Saturday night at the end of a benefit concert by the lovely (at 8 1/2 months pregnant, no less!) Omega Bugembe Okello and Village Enterprise Fund for Anti-Poverty Week to help fund start-up enterprises in Africa.
Tonight fall breezes touched down and the gentle rain began.
Friday, October 9, 2009
I'm Talking About the Weather
You know how when you've been out of touch with someone it's kind of hard and embarrassing to get back in touch...and then you stay out of touch longer, and then it's even MORE embarrassing? That's how I feel right now. I've meant to blog. In the summer I managed to blog every day about filing, but then skipped right over whole blocks of incidents and more important subjects in the fall.
So I'll do what people have done for years to get to know you again: talk about the weather.
Our northern California edition of the New York Times shows our weather on the top right of the front page. At the beginning of this week it read:
"Abundant sunshine and very pleasant...tomorrow, more of the same."
This made me laugh. Such a cliche, and so desirable, and in some way, so boring, all at the same time! As if it was a lack of weather that left it the same. Perhaps I am just permanently shaped by growing up in cold, cloudy Syracuse, New York. The weather report there NEVER said that -- not once.
This morning is still cloudy here in Northern California, and strangely, I feel a little happier. I find it so hard to stay inside and do work when it's so obnoxiously nice outside! California, I like you, but sometimes I don't really love you.
Then again, it's always this time of year that I miss the east coast -- October, fall, the changing leaves. Maple trees are planted along some of the streets of our neighborhood, but they are petite, and the color change polite. The east coast may get bitter winters and rainy springs, but fall -- at least outside of the cities -- is a blast of brilliant color and crunch whose least concern is politeness. And you don't get the state of fall without the the rest of the package. And then there are apples, and cider.
In any pros and cons list there are trade-offs. Pretty much anything can be a pro or a con.
So I'll do what people have done for years to get to know you again: talk about the weather.
Our northern California edition of the New York Times shows our weather on the top right of the front page. At the beginning of this week it read:
"Abundant sunshine and very pleasant...tomorrow, more of the same."
This made me laugh. Such a cliche, and so desirable, and in some way, so boring, all at the same time! As if it was a lack of weather that left it the same. Perhaps I am just permanently shaped by growing up in cold, cloudy Syracuse, New York. The weather report there NEVER said that -- not once.
This morning is still cloudy here in Northern California, and strangely, I feel a little happier. I find it so hard to stay inside and do work when it's so obnoxiously nice outside! California, I like you, but sometimes I don't really love you.
Then again, it's always this time of year that I miss the east coast -- October, fall, the changing leaves. Maple trees are planted along some of the streets of our neighborhood, but they are petite, and the color change polite. The east coast may get bitter winters and rainy springs, but fall -- at least outside of the cities -- is a blast of brilliant color and crunch whose least concern is politeness. And you don't get the state of fall without the the rest of the package. And then there are apples, and cider.
In any pros and cons list there are trade-offs. Pretty much anything can be a pro or a con.
Friday, September 11, 2009
9/11
I'm feeling overcome by emotion all over again. Things have gone on, but I remember this day the same. I remember being at home with my 1-year old early in the morning and getting a call from my husband on his way to work telling me something terrible had happened and to turn on the TV. I remember finding out a week or two later that an old friend I didn't think even lived in NY anymore had moved back, and didn't make it out of the towers.
Thinking about it all makes me incredulous that we're even considering a move back to the NY area. Except, of course, that it could happen anywhere people live.
For years, the imagery worked its way into anything I was writing. The sense of falling and crumbling, of destruction and loss, the revealing of a chaos we couldn't shield from that reached all the way to California. But the image of the two towers falling exists as a simple image. Whatever its ramifications, whatever happens in the future, however we interpet the events, that symbol endures.
And with one look at the calendar or the New York Times, it's powerful enough to draw the whole emotional body back again.
Thinking about it all makes me incredulous that we're even considering a move back to the NY area. Except, of course, that it could happen anywhere people live.
For years, the imagery worked its way into anything I was writing. The sense of falling and crumbling, of destruction and loss, the revealing of a chaos we couldn't shield from that reached all the way to California. But the image of the two towers falling exists as a simple image. Whatever its ramifications, whatever happens in the future, however we interpet the events, that symbol endures.
And with one look at the calendar or the New York Times, it's powerful enough to draw the whole emotional body back again.
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Secret Spaces
Every time I start to clean up one little area of the house, I am dismayed to see the areas radiating out from that one that also need attention. I'm still admiring the kids' cleaned-up art bins -- my paradigm of perfection.
Today the kids cleaned their desks. Unfortunately, they did not bother much with the stuff that came off the desk and landed on the floor and all around. At least Aaron's room doesn't have any paper to speak of in it yet. Toys are easy to put away. Paper is not.
We went to the Farmer's Market today and sampled grapes. It's amazing how the little grapes burst with flavor in your mouth. The rest of the day was pretty boring, I'm sorry to report. I was hoping to go to the beach with the family, but it was kind of windy and cooler over the hill, plus Jon had to do work most of the day (Yep, on the weekend, too) and the kids were no help at all. It's so weird to me how they don't want to do things. But then if we go and do them anyway, they usually have a blast.
Yesterday was swimming, following by a couple of hours on scooters and bikes with a visiting friend at the playground up the street. Sophie and Aaron have discovered a "secret" area to hang out in there, and I watch them circle around once in a while. I love secret areas. Watching them is almost like having my own. I don't mean I spy on them, I mean knowing that they have one. Kids are supervised so much more now than when I was a kid and roamed my neighborhood undisturbed. I can appreciate the wonder and excitement of found spaces. It's especially cool because we've been going to that park since the kids were babies but they just discovered these new parts.
Today the kids cleaned their desks. Unfortunately, they did not bother much with the stuff that came off the desk and landed on the floor and all around. At least Aaron's room doesn't have any paper to speak of in it yet. Toys are easy to put away. Paper is not.
We went to the Farmer's Market today and sampled grapes. It's amazing how the little grapes burst with flavor in your mouth. The rest of the day was pretty boring, I'm sorry to report. I was hoping to go to the beach with the family, but it was kind of windy and cooler over the hill, plus Jon had to do work most of the day (Yep, on the weekend, too) and the kids were no help at all. It's so weird to me how they don't want to do things. But then if we go and do them anyway, they usually have a blast.
Yesterday was swimming, following by a couple of hours on scooters and bikes with a visiting friend at the playground up the street. Sophie and Aaron have discovered a "secret" area to hang out in there, and I watch them circle around once in a while. I love secret areas. Watching them is almost like having my own. I don't mean I spy on them, I mean knowing that they have one. Kids are supervised so much more now than when I was a kid and roamed my neighborhood undisturbed. I can appreciate the wonder and excitement of found spaces. It's especially cool because we've been going to that park since the kids were babies but they just discovered these new parts.
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
The Other Side of the Office
It's amazing how many areas of one room can hold their own backlog of mess and clutter, layers of pesonal history and mismanagement. I so envy organized people. In the same way that some people envy creative people, I envy the magic and simplicity that is organization. Not that they are exclusive. I must keep reminding myself of that. It is a sick and twisted belief that they are separate characteristics. At least I have to keep telling myself that.
Today was spent cleaning up the other side of my office, a.k.a. the kids' art and homework area. After all, school is starting up again in a few weeks. 21 days to be precise (which I guess I was the first time....) First off, it is so great to throw things away! I listened to NPR for 3 1/2 hours straight while I cleaned. I organized and reorganized and scrubbed until the art bins are gleaming and beautiful in their beautiful organization. Sophie is making labels for the bins of markers, colored pencils, etc..
After effectively blocking out "the other" areas, they have somehow made it into my field of vision. The stack of 4 file boxes in the corner. Yes, I said file boxes. I can't believe there are more. They're not all files. There are some 25 or 50 old notebooks, and what the heck do I do with them? And I don't know what else as I am afraid to open the lids. There is also a whole closet on the other side of the office, with miscellaneous bags, hats, books, envelopes, and stuff spilling out of it (a blond wig, a bag of socks, a 20 year old thesaurus, greeting cards, and much, much more).
Is this really just one room?
Today was spent cleaning up the other side of my office, a.k.a. the kids' art and homework area. After all, school is starting up again in a few weeks. 21 days to be precise (which I guess I was the first time....) First off, it is so great to throw things away! I listened to NPR for 3 1/2 hours straight while I cleaned. I organized and reorganized and scrubbed until the art bins are gleaming and beautiful in their beautiful organization. Sophie is making labels for the bins of markers, colored pencils, etc..
After effectively blocking out "the other" areas, they have somehow made it into my field of vision. The stack of 4 file boxes in the corner. Yes, I said file boxes. I can't believe there are more. They're not all files. There are some 25 or 50 old notebooks, and what the heck do I do with them? And I don't know what else as I am afraid to open the lids. There is also a whole closet on the other side of the office, with miscellaneous bags, hats, books, envelopes, and stuff spilling out of it (a blond wig, a bag of socks, a 20 year old thesaurus, greeting cards, and much, much more).
Is this really just one room?
Bring Back the Erie Canal!
I am posting a link to today's Syracuse Post-Standard where I go to bat for reviving the history and coolness of the Erie Canal and Canal Days! Click here to read my article on the Opinion Page!
And if you're from Syracuse or anywhere in New York State and you agree, please put your comment with the Post-Standard and let's make things happen!
Also, I blogged a while back about cookbooks and my friend Ann Hodgman's book "Beat This!" Apparently I'm not the only one who thinks she's cool. Check out this link to find out more.
Ta!
And if you're from Syracuse or anywhere in New York State and you agree, please put your comment with the Post-Standard and let's make things happen!
Also, I blogged a while back about cookbooks and my friend Ann Hodgman's book "Beat This!" Apparently I'm not the only one who thinks she's cool. Check out this link to find out more.
Ta!
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Jack London Writers Conference: Call of the Wild Mind
In honor of the upcoming Jack London Writers Conference Oct 10-11 in Foster City, CA
I would rather be ashes than dust!
I would rather that my spark
should burn out in a brilliant blaze
than it should be stifled by dryrot.
I would rather be a superb meteor,
every atom of me in magnificent
glow, than a sleepy and permanent planet.
The proper function of man is to
live, not to exist.
I shall not waste my days in trying
to prolong them.
I shall use my time.
-Jack London
I would rather be ashes than dust!
I would rather that my spark
should burn out in a brilliant blaze
than it should be stifled by dryrot.
I would rather be a superb meteor,
every atom of me in magnificent
glow, than a sleepy and permanent planet.
The proper function of man is to
live, not to exist.
I shall not waste my days in trying
to prolong them.
I shall use my time.
-Jack London
Monday, July 27, 2009
Bring Back the Music
Lest you think I have completed my filing project, I have not quite.
Since I last blogged, my poster of Pele, the Hawaaiin goddess of the volcano, won't stay on the wall, and my inspiration has fallen. Also, I forgot to turn on music. Those things combined made filing a very dreary task the last few days. I am getting close to being "done" though. I've gone through every file except for one that is vaguely labeled "Story Parts" and has various envelopes, stapled together notes and partial scenes. I think I need to take a walk before tackling that one. Everything else is either thrown out or back in the cabinet, but I need to make a trip to the office supply store and get my file label maker working so I can get my new system in place. Pretty simple stuff, but it's the last step, and it will mean I have a place to put things the right way. Maybe I CAN do it. I got a website up, and I didn't know how that would happen for a long time.
It is good to rid myself of a lot of old paper. I kind of wish I could throw it ALL out, but I can't quite. Besides, there are those gems.
So can I actually get to my "real" writing this week? I'm a little obsessed with filing now. I get a little overly focused....My "Organizing" file did yield detailed notes from a professional organizer on how to put my files together. Some other organizer advice a long time ago suggested I do away with the hanging files altogether and just use manila folders. So half of one drawer is like that and all those files do is slide down and become mush. So, back you go, green hanging files.
Since I last blogged, my poster of Pele, the Hawaaiin goddess of the volcano, won't stay on the wall, and my inspiration has fallen. Also, I forgot to turn on music. Those things combined made filing a very dreary task the last few days. I am getting close to being "done" though. I've gone through every file except for one that is vaguely labeled "Story Parts" and has various envelopes, stapled together notes and partial scenes. I think I need to take a walk before tackling that one. Everything else is either thrown out or back in the cabinet, but I need to make a trip to the office supply store and get my file label maker working so I can get my new system in place. Pretty simple stuff, but it's the last step, and it will mean I have a place to put things the right way. Maybe I CAN do it. I got a website up, and I didn't know how that would happen for a long time.
It is good to rid myself of a lot of old paper. I kind of wish I could throw it ALL out, but I can't quite. Besides, there are those gems.
So can I actually get to my "real" writing this week? I'm a little obsessed with filing now. I get a little overly focused....My "Organizing" file did yield detailed notes from a professional organizer on how to put my files together. Some other organizer advice a long time ago suggested I do away with the hanging files altogether and just use manila folders. So half of one drawer is like that and all those files do is slide down and become mush. So, back you go, green hanging files.
Thursday, July 23, 2009
Gems and Duds
The truly horrible thing about writing workshops, is you end up with 12 or more copies of the same story, with markings and notes here and there. Most people probably go throught the notes, use what they want, and discard the copies.
Not me. I carry the whole set from place to place. All that paper is heavy. I just dumped a bunch of copies, keeping just the page of notes at the end. Even so, the story I just looked at is not one I might want to go back to...it seems the first file I went through had the best "gems" so far.
Not me. I carry the whole set from place to place. All that paper is heavy. I just dumped a bunch of copies, keeping just the page of notes at the end. Even so, the story I just looked at is not one I might want to go back to...it seems the first file I went through had the best "gems" so far.
The Lisa Files
I am going through the files from the back of the cabinet. The ones that have been shoved back their for years. There are stories and essays from 1999 when I first started taking classes at San Francisco State.
I was delighted to see that there was a whole bunch of stuff I'd forgotten about, and some of it I really like! Now why are they sitting in the back of a file cabinet for the last decade instead of being sent out to be published? I mean, really! It is high time!
I was delighted to see that there was a whole bunch of stuff I'd forgotten about, and some of it I really like! Now why are they sitting in the back of a file cabinet for the last decade instead of being sent out to be published? I mean, really! It is high time!
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
More Filing Revelations
Apparently FILING blogging is as prevalent as SANDWICH blogging was earlier this year. Am I a bit OBSESSIVE?
I just HAVE to say, though, that the BEST, BEST file I came across in my file cabinet, which had gone unopened and un-added to in too long, was "FLATTERY AND PRAISE." There is some really great feedback in there for me as an editor.
Yay, me!!!
I just HAVE to say, though, that the BEST, BEST file I came across in my file cabinet, which had gone unopened and un-added to in too long, was "FLATTERY AND PRAISE." There is some really great feedback in there for me as an editor.
Yay, me!!!
Party On, Moms and Dads!
Still filing.
The most fun thing so far about today is that "Parenting" is now followed in the filing cabinet by "Parties." Now wouldn't that be something?
The most fun thing so far about today is that "Parenting" is now followed in the filing cabinet by "Parties." Now wouldn't that be something?
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